don't pretend you know me.
Posted: Thursday, October 31, 2002 by Damon inDecker Rohl
Thu 12:12AM EST
Speak of the devil...
Not quite a devil, Decker. Not suave enough. But speak of him and he does show up: Ford, James, Livingston and all, bouncing through the pinelands at night at some insanely fast speed. 30, 40mph, offroad, with one working headlight.
"STOP!"
That would be Livingston, hollering from the back of the truck where he was getting bounced around but good. Decker slams on the brakes; the truck creaks and groans to a stop ten or twelve feet from the little gathering.
"You wanna tell me why we stopped?" grumbles Decker, throwing the handbrake on and turning around to call through the open window at the back.
Livingston shakes his head and sucks a hit off his pipe. "Straight ahead, mon."
Decker and James look. Why, if it isn't Nova and Siobhan. A mutter under his breath, and the doors of the Ford creak noisily open. Thud, thud: two FUll-Moons land on the forest floor.
Siobhan
Thu 12:14AM EST
Her head snaps to look at Nova..
crack the vertibre in her neck cracking and making that sound...trying to save her...shit she should just say
thanks for compeltely botching shit up, not thinking and ruining the plan (was there a plan)
a warrior she was supposed to be a warrior...she WAS a warrior, she wouldnt act without thinking next time...thats for sure..never again but Curious by Nature...she could have helped it that time..
"yeah.." she pauses..
"Sorry i didnt get us out of there"
enough words there...that was for sure....
the sounds of a vehicle...something...coming towards Gabes clearing...
oh....him when he gets into view....But she doesnt say anything...she merely paces, ignoring her shadow who seems to be pacing behind her
Dire
Thu 12:15AM EST
*He turns to look up at the truck. Stopping his pacing behind Chewie. Gently resting the head of his long handeled hammer on the ground he puts one hand on top of it. He's in glabro form at the moment. Platinum blond hair and slightly silvered furr here and there. Dressed in Combat boots, jeans, a furr lined vest, bracers. Crystle blue eyes seem to take in the two new comers and laugh. His voice crunchy and rather amused* Your missing a headlight.
Nova
Thu 12:17AM EST
She hears the truck a mile away, rolled her eyes as it got closer and she recognizes the sound of the engine. She ignores it, still speaking to Siobhan.
"Not an issue. Trying is the best anyone can do. It's good enough for me."
Siobhan
Thu 12:18AM EST
She mutters to Nova quietly..
"it isnt good enough for me"
Decker Rohl
Thu 12:18AM EST
Livingston's still tripping out in the bed of the truck. James and Decker are trodding up through the nighttime forest scented with pine, the former glancing at his tribesmate, the latter glancing at his.
Well. Sort-of tribesmate, in the case of Siobhan.
Then the glabro wiseass points out the obvious. Decker twists around to look back at the one-lighted truck; twists back. "No shit, Sherlock." A nod up for Nova. "How you feelin', Crescent-Moon?"
Dire
Thu 12:20AM EST
Yeah fuck nuts. * he nods to the truck* you do. Could be a safty hazard. You might wanna check that.
Nova
Thu 12:21AM EST
A not-so-sweet smile crosses her face as she addresses Decker.
"Stoned. Whatda'ya want?"
Siobhan
Thu 12:22AM EST
fuck nuts? Her eyes merely roll...When would she come across people who actually acted as Gaian...who respected the territory of another, who respected the land, who respected the Mother...
Ugh...She just continued to slowly pace...As she hears Deckers voice ask about Nova she can hear his voice in Decker..and it makes her cringe inside. [are you your fathers child]
She doesnt speak to him, nor does she speak to Dire...his childlike antics disturbed her as much as everything disturbed her...and she wasnt a girl of many words...
generally quiet
Nova
Thu 12:23AM EST
She was obviously annoyed at not being able to stand, to be forced to look up at Decker. It was like rubbing a cat the wrong way, and there was definate puff-up effect in the air.
Decker Rohl
Thu 12:23AM EST
Another twist around to look at the truck while beside him, James keeps his peace. For an Ahroun, James had a lot of that: peace.
Decker looks back at Dire. "Yeah whatever," he grunts. "Ain't dead yet." A closer, scrutinizing look, noting the glyph carved in over his eye. "Got a name, Fenrir?"
And then, to Nova. The smile grates on his nerves; his nerves are wearing thin. "Visitin' yer ass," he replies, cool and quiet, Southern boy to the core. A flick of a glance around. "Looks like you ain't achin' fer company, though."
Dire
Thu 12:25AM EST
*he nods still sizing up Decker* Yeah, and I can spell it too. Can you say the same? * mimicing Deckers accent* Or do they teach that by grade 3 in Mobile?
Decker Rohl
Thu 12:27AM EST
A blond eyebrow, darker than the shortcropped fuzz of his hair, shoots up. Beside him, James would feel the faint bristle in the Modi's mood. "Askin' you yer name, boy. Answer the fuckin' question."
Jukebox
Thu 12:29AM EST
peace
it's amazing what that can bring for one
good ol', all natural, 100%, low down, knock out, drag out, you'll be this way if it kills you, peace
it might also be he not about to get all riled up in this part of the woods
literally
this ain't his territory
this ain't his thing
sinuses all clogged up with pine-sol
course, it is sorta nice to be out of the motel room
and it shows in the easy smile that's formed somewhere in the frame of light brown dreads
well, at least until that familiar ripple washed over him
(here. we go. again.)
he isn't thrilled with the new Fenrir's attitude, either
muscular shoulders shrug
rebar in the sling clacking
he's not saying anything.... yet
Nova
Thu 12:29AM EST
She knew his temper was wearing thin, but then, wasn't it always? And that wore thin on her. But she was quite happy for Dire acting as a distraction for Decker.
Siobhan
Thu 12:30AM EST
She looks at Dire..."watch it" she snaps her words flipping off her tongue. She isnt in the mood, and certainly doesnt like her own home being insulted in front of her...
2 words
watch it and she meant both of them, it wasnt past her to fight..to hurt or to win..in fact she didnt mind fighting one bit, the rage inside her always pushed her to the edge, the edge she enjoyed walking 99% of the time..
not tonight though She wasnt in the mood...
Lifting her arm slightly in a circular motion, wincing only briefly as she continues to move it...fucking great comapny here in the one place she figured no one would come to...Didnt they all like the stench of the wyrm ridden city more...more their style
(remind you of anyone) They were more alike then they knew
Dire
Thu 12:30AM EST
Earn it slow, stupid and Ill favored. I suspect your rep preceeds you and I already know yours. * He arks a platinum blond brow himself and stands there.*
Nova
Thu 12:33AM EST
Looking around, she idly found herself wondering if they were more likely to fight near the fire, or away from it... Cause she certainly didn't feel like getting trampled.
Dire
Thu 12:35AM EST
*He steps out of the way and lets him fly on by with a slap on the butt* OLEY!
Siobhan
Thu 12:39AM EST
Her head moves to watch the 2 dammit she hated watching...she could feel her heartbeat racing..the anger from the past few days stewing on the fact she had made a mistake int he battle with the spider filling her up inside..
she needed to release it yet she couldnt...still fucking healing...
Sonnofabitch--She continues to pace, slowly...not even bothering to watch the 2 flaunt their manlihood...or whatever it was She merely paced...every once in a while looking up at the sky...
Jukebox
Thu 12:39AM EST
well
not one to be left out
a dark brow lifts
cooly glancing at Dire
"And apparently yours isn't reputable or intelligent enough to proceed you. Must you posture this way, or are you capable of interacting like the others?"
hm. too late now.
he has to admit there's a beauty in that
watching Decker go six-ways-furry-from-Sunday
he doesn't move back
just watching
amazingly relaxed with all the tempers swelling, isn't he
Decker Rohl
Thu 12:41AM EST
--and the direwolf lands, turns, claws tractioning through dirt like a motherfuckin' michelin from hell. A whuff out - might've almost been a cold snort.
Quick, aren'tcha?
A paw at the earth, and then the direwolf bunches to lunge again - a feint - and this time, anticipates the dodge. Six ways furry from Sunday barrels right into Dire, knocking him down, and a crushing bite finds home on the throat.
Just one?
He was still playing around.
Dire
Thu 12:41AM EST
*Still apperently clam* I interact quite well. Chewie and Short stuff here haven't killed me yet.
Siobhan
Thu 12:42AM EST
She narrows her eyes yet again..."not yet anyways" she mutters as the fight continues.."and thats only cause im still fucked up"
nuff said bout that
Jukebox
Thu 12:43AM EST
there's a look
even a bit of an easy grin
as the grey storm hits Dire
yeh, but you forgot about Alabama boy, didn't you
Nova
Thu 12:43AM EST
The puff-up effect. Even though she doesn't shift, and she's tiny, she looks damn pissed. Raising up as much as she can with two bum legs...
"ExCUSE ME! This a place of healing! If you're gonna fight, get the FUCK OUT!!"
That's a lot of voice for a tiny person.
Dire
Thu 12:44AM EST
*He nods* Very. * He sees the flient but desides to take the lundge straight on. The long iorn handel of the sledge coming up and braced in two hands it racks across the teeth side ways. Rolling backwards he lets the hispo Take him to the ground and then with titanic strength he levers his legs up sending him on his merry way in the same direction he was going to start with. A gentle kip up and twirl of the hammer and he loos down at a gnash in his theigh* Humm... mayby not quite as slow as I thought... still look funny though.
Jukebox
Thu 12:46AM EST
a rebar stick makes its way out from the sling
sharpened tip (wait, what happened to the wrappings) gently finding its way beneath Nova's jaw
lifting up
chsh
he doesn't say anything
it's all in a look
do you want to be next?
she should know the ways better than that
and the Gnawer goes back to watching
Decker Rohl
Thu 12:49AM EST
Decker...isn't patient. He didn't like games. He liked a fight as much as the next Fenrir, but somewhere in the middle of every brawl, things turn serious.
They just turned serious here.
When the iron-grey beast attacks this time, he explodes. All the speed and strength of his Moon come barreling down, hurricane in a windtunnel, whirlwind in grey pelt, and when it hits Dire - it seems to split. Not one, not two, not three, not four -
Five bites. Five different directions. Anywhere he could reach, every which way, tearing flesh, crushing bone. Dire can dodge one, maybe even two - but not all five. Not all at once.
Nova
Thu 12:49AM EST
She grabs the end of the rebar, glaring down it to James, her eyes telling him that she doesn't give a shit.
A noise much like a growl comes out of her throat as she shoves the rebar away from her, still looking at James.
"Dont. Touch. Me."
Siobhan
Thu 12:52AM EST
So ya
Thought ya
Might like to go to the show.
She stops her pacing, its a wonder how there wasnt a groove wore into the ground where she continued walking back and forth...Stopping completely to watch the show
To feel the warm thrill of confusion
That space cadet glow.
She isnt amused..[you are so much like your father] but she also isnt compltely appauled, this was their way...and she knew it, she still felt the rage building up inside her..she wanted in..and for some reason...not against her (half) brother..no not at all in fact her anger was building towards the other guy...
how dare he come here and..
But what could she do right now...not until her arm and back were healed...
Tell me is something eluding you, sunshine?
Is this not what you expected to see?
If you wanna find out what's behind these cold eyes
You'll just have to claw your way through this disguise.
Jukebox
Thu 12:53AM EST
the tall Gnawer falls into a crouch
dreads swaying in the tilt of his head
leaning in a bit towards Nova
"You want him to turn on you next, kid? If so... keep it up."
I covered your tail when that creepy guy was asking about you
don't make me regret it
Nova
Thu 12:56AM EST
She keeps her eyes on James.
"Thanks for the help, but it's it's so conditional, I don't need it. Besides, you admitted you don't know enough about spirits. And they're fucking it all up. As a Theurge, it's my job to protect the clearing. So leave me to it."
Jukebox
Thu 01:00AM EST
"Exactly."
there's a soft chuckle
"But there's a fault in your plan. Do you think those two are actually going to listen to you right now? Save your breath for fixing things when we're gone unless you want to become a part of the fight."
c'mon kid, you're a Gnawer, you should know better
besides
this is Decker we're talking about here
and I honestly don't want to see you splattered
Dire
Thu 01:12AM EST
* he looks down at his leg* Ok bitch. Now youlearn to hurt. * Calling on his gifts he turns off his pain, surdging to crinos he pivots on his good leg his speed ungodly and the long handeled battlehammer singing though the air to knock that arrogent bastard into the next country
Nova
Thu 01:17AM EST
She smirks, an evil little smirk, like she carries an important secrets.
Kid. He called me kid. And being a Bone Gnawer, he still thinks me powerless...
A laugh escapes her lips as she turns to the hypnotizing flame that sits next to her, gets lost in it, and starts speaking in the language of the spirits.
Siobhan
Thu 01:21AM EST
She moves to the treeline..not wanting to watch what she couldnt be a part of
Fucking...fucks..
She didnt even know what she was annoyed at now...She hated that, being pissed off and not even knowing EHY she was pissed off, just knowing she was pissed off the rage building inside like a full bladder..ready to explode if she didnt have some...sort...of...release..
pissed off.. She just stews at the treeline...
System Admin
Thu 01:21AM EST
The spirits are informed their clearing is being desecrated...informed by the girl...
the winds change and rush in strong...a warning
Decker Rohl
Thu 01:27AM EST
Crinos for Crinos, the Modi throws out his right arm even as he charges into the blow. Black tendrils creep down the length of the knotted, corded arm, coming together in his clawed hand - a staff, no, a spear, no, a greataxe that only a Crinos could ever wield.
Ogre. Foot upon foot of black metal inscribed with runes; a heavy spike at one end, a two-headed axe, one drastically larger than the other, on the other. The axe is dull black from tip to tip, but the edge gleams hot and bright.
The warhammer catches the Modi on the side of the skull, and he staggers sideways under the onslaught, nearly falling to one knee. In the next instant, the greataxe screeches to a stop an inch from the Skald's neck.
A low, rippling snarl: You don't know me. No accent in the Garou-speech; nothing but the blood of Fenris. Don't pretend you know me. While your 'friend' here poisoned you against a tribesmate, my pack and I tracked Dancers. While you were sitting here listening to her crap, we killed two of them.
There's more out there. Two at least. Good killing. We can keep this bullshit up or you can ask how you can get a bite in.
The greataxe vanishes back into the arm of the Crinos-wolf. (Boldly) shifting down first, though only to Glabro, Decker rubs the side of his (cracked) skull, spits to the side, and levels a steady grey gaze at the Skald.
Dire
Thu 01:30AM EST
*His brows raise at the axe. He nods at that seeming to ponder it* Yeah.. You got a point. * He shifts down to glabro himself and gently slings his hammer over his shoulder on the slender cord. He looks at his leg* You have to fuckin' bite me?? * he grunts and hobbles over to sit beside nova and roots though his pack and pulls out duct tape and starts taping his leg up* She didn't posion me aginst you by the way. Just let me in on your character. * he chuckels his leg hurting like a mother fucker*
Siobhan
Thu 01:31AM EST
And her head turns as the words come from his mouth...Dancer?
She turns and heads back towards the 2 fighting...Dancers
She forgets the anger and rage for the moment...her own mind now racing with thoughts...
warrior she moves to Decker..looking at him.
Eyes taking him in, [you look so much like him]
she looks right into his eyes..ignoring the fight, the brawl, and not waiting for Dire to answer...instead she speaks..
"How many more do you think there are?" she is quick to ask the question..."You killed 2?" the corners of her mouth turn up slightly..."Did you gut them?" and the smile widens
Jukebox
Thu 01:33AM EST
that was....
eventful
but the Gnawer hasn't moved much
slightly wondering what Nova was doing
..... paranoid? not him....
Nova
Thu 01:34AM EST
Her eyes refocus back to normal, and she turns to look at James again with a smirk.
Decker Rohl
Thu 01:35AM EST
No words, as he watches the Skald sit. Only after the other has lowered himself down does Decker sit as well - half-buckling down, one hand rising to hold his throbbing. Concussion from hell.
"Ain't never pretended to be a hero," is his short reply to one or all of Dire's comments. Then, the storm-grey eyes lance to Siobhan. A quiet. "Two more at least. A fucked-up Garou and a twisted kin. Don't know where they's holed up."
He ignores the invitation to boast. To boast would be to remember; to remember would be to hear Asher's voice ringing through his head again.
Dire
Thu 01:37AM EST
*He nods to Decker* We'll find um... fucking bastards... WHAT? * he looks around and squints* Go away* He half lunges at something that apperently only he sees and cackels as it runs away. Looking back to them he finishes taping his leg and puts the duct tape in his bag* Chewie and Short stuff were telling me about some killer Spider rats too.
Jukebox
Thu 01:38AM EST
at this point
he's still quietly listening
though at the sudden outburst, he can't help the little grin that starts
(you know, that little boyish grin when you just figure out the jinx)
and it flashes at Nova
so that's what that was
Decker Rohl
Thu 01:40AM EST
Chewie. Short Stuff. Decker's eyes flicker, and he decides not to say anything about it. Coiled on his shoulder, the black tattoo (axe) gleams one moment, liquid-bright; is dull the next, dark as velvet-night. Slowly, slowly, the tattoo seems to settle down, resuming its original sheen against the Modi's skin.
"Killer spider rats?"
Siobhan
Thu 01:40AM EST
At least 2....she ponders this..
at least...2 Her hand moving to her chin as she thinks...
Then hearing Dire again she snaps
"I said A RAT..a big fucking rat..not a spider rat" you freak She shakes her head..."one big fucking rat..and lets not talk about the stupid spiders" she shakes her head.."plus there was some guy on the awning" she shrugs....
and returns her glance to Decker, then her eyes move to Nova and James...and she remains quiet...
not cause she has nothing to say She does...but more to listen for now..she really cant tell much of the incident with the spiders..except the acted before thinking and made things worse.
curious by nature
Dire
Thu 01:42AM EST
*he throws his hands up in the air* WELL I WASN"T HERE! * He shakes his head* Spider AND rats then Sheesh.
Nova
Thu 01:42AM EST
Returning James' smile with a grin, she nods.
"A Theurge is rarely powerless. Especially at sacred sites. And this is close enough.
Decker Rohl
Thu 01:43AM EST
Oh. That.
"James's lookin' into that this Friday." Rage blown off in one fell stroke, the Modi seems almost indrawn, contemplative. "Guy on the awnin' ain't human and he ain't Garou. Dunno what he is."
As the throbbing in his temple subsides, the Modi resumes his birth form, leaning down to tie a blood-splattered shoelace.
Siobhan
Thu 01:45AM EST
"Looking into it?" she asks..."looking into it how?" She ponders the thought of not being human and not being garou...that didnt leave many options...
Looking at James now...
"I want to tag along" she replies..."I'll be healed by then"
Dire
Thu 01:47AM EST
*He nods* Yeah count me in. Chewie needs somone to watch her back * he smiles. Not meanly*
Jukebox
Thu 01:48AM EST
there's a laugh, soft, warm, even musical
"Never said you were powerless."
who wasn't giving whom credit?
though he can't help a look between Siobhan and Decker
hm. odd.
it's shrugged away
or.... nodded away
either way
"Yeh, I'm going to meet the guy about something." dark gaze moving to Sio, then Dire "But I can't allow you to go along, I made a deal."
and I don't break my deals
not for anybody
especially not strangers
"No offense."
Decker Rohl
Thu 01:49AM EST
The Modi shrugs, loose, lazy, as James bars the way. " 'S Jame's call."
Nova
Thu 01:51AM EST
She turns back to stare at the fire, whispering softly to it, thanking the spirits for listening, offering them a libation of the only food she happens to have on hand, which is water and beany-weenies.
Siobhan
Thu 01:52AM EST
She looks at him
"no offense taken" nuff said bout that
Dire
Thu 01:52AM EST
*He srugs and looks around* Damnit... they are gathering nuts again....
Nova
Thu 01:54AM EST
Glancing up at Dire, she tilts her head slightly.
"When was the last time you offered them libations?"
Dire
Thu 01:55AM EST
*he blinks* I usually just goosh um...... * blink blink*
Siobhan
Thu 01:56AM EST
What the hell were they talking about? she glances to the 2 of them sitting on the log..
"Offered WHO...what?"
Moving over towards where Decker was she shrugs slightly and shoves her hands in her pocket..
"you think they (dancers) know about out here?"
Nova
Thu 01:57AM EST
She shakes her head.
"No wonder they're pissed at you. You haven't done the ritual sharing of bread and wine. They're very particular about those things."
Decker Rohl
Thu 01:57AM EST
Decker watches Dire, somewhere between incredulous and bored. Mild curiosity might have a foot in the door, too. Sitting forward, elbows on knees, feet planted wide, he's quiet like he usually is. His whole damn pack was pretty quiet.
(Wonder what Livingston was up to in that truck...)
At length, he lowers his head, paws a hand over the short-buzzed hair, and shakes his head once like a prizefighter before a fight. Getting to his feet, he nods up at James. "Go fer a walk." An invitation or a request or a command...pick one.
A pause, turning back to Siobhan. A grimace. "Yeah, they do. One of 'em, at least."
Jukebox
Thu 01:59AM EST
he figured they'd understand
some things do cross tribal boundaries
but the Gnawer stretches to stand
somewhat skirting the circle
moving into the smoke for a few
damn pine-sol
making his sinuses burn
a glance to Decker
and he moves off as well
wouldn't matter which one it was
Dire
Thu 02:00AM EST
I know they bite.... * he blinks at her* You think that'd work?? * He looks up at Decker and Chewie and raises his brows* How about you? You think I should try and appease them?
Siobhan
Thu 02:02AM EST
She watches as they leave...yeah whatever...Decker and James..
leaving her here..why wouldnt they..she has no reason to be asked to go with them
she was in fact a stranger and why did she want to go with them anyways...fuck that..she didnt need them, she didnt need shit..she didnt like the fucking city anyways, and thats where they all stayed...
And so she begins to pace again, slowly...eyes moving to Dire now..
"huh?"
Nova
Thu 02:02AM EST
She shrugs one shoulder.
"It's worth a try. You may have pissed them off too much already though."
Decker Rohl
Thu 02:03AM EST
A lifted brow at Dire. "Why not?" - with that, turning, moving off. He had issues to discuss with his packmate, and they'd been brooding too long already.
As the voices in Gabriel's clearing (which is apparently where they are) fade into the distance, Decker's muddy shoes track over pine needles, dead leaves - and, beneath that, the spongy, soft earth.
He wasn't really Urrah...not at heart. He couldn't tap into the flow of the city. Couldn't strengthen his soul in the heart of the iron towers. Then again, he couldn't stand to be cooped up out here for long, either, but sometimes it was almost good to be back. Almost.
Another quarter-mile or so. "Shit I said 'bout Gaby really had you worked up the other day, huh."
Dire
Thu 02:05AM EST
*He nods and hops up and hobbeling a bit, not that it hurts but that he knows it should, He paces behind Chewie* So you two... no pack. I'm in the same boat. Think we could work together with out killing each other? * Hobbel hobbel*
Siobhan
Thu 02:09AM EST
She turns her head..."not me..no offense" she shakes her head.."i dont know how long im staying out here..." eyes glance to where Decker retreated...that general direction..."I found what i was lookin for" she shrugs.."dont know if i plan on staying"
but with Dancers here...there was more to do...
She shakes her head.."cant think about a pack..not yet..not here" she sighs.."sorry"
Dire
Thu 02:11AM EST
*He raises his brows and nods* Kay...
Dire
Thu 02:11AM EST
*He raises his brows and nods* Kay...
Jukebox
Thu 02:12AM EST
sometimes, you take a walk in the woods, in total silence, and you feel like you're on a death march, there's things you don't want to talk about, where you've been, where you're going, and why you're heading there..... and other times..... you can walk between cities and not say a word and still be comfortable
at ease
at home
well, almost
he's certainly not at home way out here in the woods
getting used to it, slowly and surely
he learned a lot on the drift south from NYC
but the scents are so severe and pure it gives him a headache
he's Urrah through and through
and if it weren't for his packmate, probably two days from finding his way back from whence they came
but he is comfortable in the silence
he's just as comfortable breaking it, softly
"For a lot of reasons."
Siobhan
Thu 02:13AM EST
She looks at them both.."hey you are both welcome..and i got your back, i just dont betray a pack, and I dont know how long ill be around here" she sighs...
"I mean..." pausing to think..."a pack stands by the others through and through, you dont want me just up n leavin on you both" she shrugs.."i cant pack up unless i know im stayin round"
Dire
Thu 02:15AM EST
*He nods* Yeah but garou arn't ment to run alone. * he falls over and blinks looking at his leg* Damn thing... You see that fucker trip me?!?! * he shakes his head and looks up at the ladies* We could do a temp pack... say.. till we just figured out these spiders... AND * he looks pointedly at Chewie at the "and"* Rats?
Decker Rohl
Thu 02:18AM EST
Decker, moving low to the ground, simply spreads his open hands: a shrug, an invitation to elaborate.
This far from the city, the stars are pinpricks of blazing light overhead. The Milky Way is visible, a diffuse scattering of distant stars spilled like quicksilver. The tips of the trees trace black against the blue-black sky. One of the few pure places left on earth, this, and while the Urrah can't appreciate it, even he would know this is what they fight for. And Decker knows, too - deep inside, under the apathy, under the fury, under the ugly side of him that wants nothing more than to kill and kill and kill.
A Fenrir does not fear death, but nor does a Fenrir love it. A Fenrir does not fear death because he fights out of love of life. And what he fights for, in the end - is not the glory. Not the honor. Not the wisdom and not the rank. Not the blood, not the violence, not the thrills and not the kills.
He fights for this. A peaceful night when rage was spent and the beast was slumbering (if only for a while). A silent night with your pack, when you don't have to think about Dancers, corrupters, lovers, traitors. If only for a moment. If only for an instant.
Born to fight.
Born to die.
Someday, Decker will understand.
Talk to me, Jamey-boy.
Nova
Thu 02:20AM EST
Pulling out a worn, diary-like book, she begins flipping through the pages.
Siobhan
Thu 02:22AM EST
Her eyes move to Nova then to Dire...She is quiet...so quiet She scratches her head...not sure what to say...just watching the 2 of them...
finally she speaks..
"You and Decker were in a pack before..right?"
Dire
Thu 02:23AM EST
*He blinks at his idea being ignored and just kinda half lays there.*
Nova
Thu 02:25AM EST
Looking up from her book, she answers.
"Not really. He said I was. Never got confirmation from the Alpha. Same as this time. I'm done with the games."
Siobhan
Thu 02:29AM EST
And so she thinks...not sure how to answer..packs meant a lot to her She didnt know if it was fair if she wasnt going to stay...however while she was here...
Her eyes move to Dire then back at Nova...
She stands there thinking...not sure what exactly to do, she certainly wasnt joining the city pack (not that she had opportunity) She wasnt sure about Gabes pack..."Have you spoken to Gabe about a pack?"
Dire
Thu 02:33AM EST
*He props himself up on one arm and listens to them*
Nova
Thu 02:33AM EST
She shakes her head no.
"Up until now, I have seen no other prospects for a pack, outside the city pack. There's been no need to bug Gabe about it."
Jukebox
Thu 02:34AM EST
part of the walk he spends looking where he's going
but soon as he learns the triggers in Decker's footsteps to what's ahead, the lay of the hidden path, he lets his eyes drift up
falling into that easy, ground covering stroll
one nice thing about being so far out
you can see the stars
not just what works down through the city's jungle canopy haze of electric confusion
but everything
Pegasus..... parts of Sagittarius...... Draco..... Scorpius......
all drifting down through the trees
enjoying it for a dozen or so yards, soaking it up, getting used to it
he's known it all along
he's just never known how to appreciate it
some things take time to wrap your mind around
"Ever say a Gnawer, for any reason, doesn't matter again, Decker..... I won't hold back. I don't know your history with her. I don't particularly care. I met her, and there's something tragically wrong.... but that doesn't mean she doesn't matter. We hear that all the time. From Lords..... Walkers..... Fangs.... Wendigo..... Fenrir.... everybody. But to hear it out of the mouth of your own packmate?"
dark eyes glance over, watching the Modi's profile in the starlight
"That hurt."
he's quiet for a few more steps
this is the hard part
"Tainted Gnawers are something of tender spot."
Dire
Thu 02:36AM EST
*He smiles a bit* We have a decent start here. Theurge, Galliard, ANd... * he eyes Chewie* Ahroun?
Siobhan
Thu 02:36AM EST
She looks over at Dire..."You know how to act when with an elder?" she puts her hands on her hips.."how do i know you wont act out and get me in trouble?" she watches him..."you were jumpin all around earlier, even threatened the elder in his own turf" she pauses.."tell me why you are a good person to pack with"
Dire
Thu 02:39AM EST
*He smiles up at her* If you were observent I didn't really threaten the elder. I only stated that I would not be labeled with a derogitory name for something beyond my control. I was quite respectful and pleasent when he was asking questions and even was regailing him with a story when you walked off. As for jumping around. * he nods* I'm kinda a jumpy person but I know what's what.
Why I'm good to pack with? * He smiles and stands slowly* Because when you need me. I'll be there. I'll watch your back. * He looks to Nova* And you'll never be sent anywhere alone.
Decker Rohl
Thu 02:40AM EST
Dark eyes on his profile: he feels it, and turns to meet the gaze, slowing, stopping. Hands in his pockets, he looks at his packmate by the light of the distant stars for a long, long moment, and he's the first to look away.
An exhale. That ain't how I meant it. But that wasn't something he could say. A frown stirs his brow, which could be kingly in ten, twenty years, in another life.
"Got it," he says at last; unvoiced apology. Then - a sharp glance back; a sharp frown. "She ain't--"
Pause. Stop. Decker didn't lie often, didn't lie well, and couldn't really lie to a packmate. A shake of his head, once or twice.
"Don't know that she's tainted. Was - hoverin', the last I saw o' her. But I ain't sure o' that."
There's too much taint around him. Sickboy, Salome, and now Gaby as well...? And if one knew about Imogen, they all knew. He didn't want to accept it. It wasn't something he wanted to face. For the first time, Decker felt himself trying, trying hard, to willingly block the truth.
Nova
Thu 02:41AM EST
Continuing her flipping through the pages of her book, she stops suddenly.
"Ah hah!! Found it! Goblins."
Dire
Thu 02:42AM EST
*his brows shoot up and he hops over on one leg. Fals right over the log and lands with a SLAM and then crawls up to peek at what she's reading*
Nova
Thu 02:44AM EST
She reads the passage.
"Originally a general name for small, grotesque, but friendly brownie-type creatures."
She smiles.
Dire
Thu 02:45AM EST
*he shakes his head* ohhh no. They bite... and throw things...! * he nods and grumps*
Siobhan
Thu 02:45AM EST
She listnens and nods at Dires answer...now listening to Nova talk about the goblins.."what are you talking about goblins for?"
Dire
Thu 02:46AM EST
*He wiggles a finger* They like to follow me around and cause untold Havoc.. thing is I'm the only one that can ever see um.
Nova
Thu 02:48AM EST
"From what I understand, that's fairly common. They'll often make themselves visible to only the one they're causing mischief for. So... brownies..."
She goes flipping through the book again.
"I know they're in here."
Jukebox
Thu 02:50AM EST
he knows that's more of an apology than most get
half of him didn't even expect it
not from a Fenrir to a Gnawer
not from a Foster to a Cliath
but he doesn't make anything more of it
just a little bit of a smile - accepted
it's the past now
but in a breath it changes
tattered tails swirl around second hand Cochrans as he steps up to the Modi
right up
so this time storm gray can't look away
"You don't know. You're not sure."
something burns deep inside the rich brown
even out here in the darkness beneath the trees
it's visable
"Or do you just not want to accept it."
he didn't either
he hated accepting it
..... and who's he talking about, anyway?
Dire
Thu 02:51AM EST
*He grunts a small surprised sound and nods and looks up at Chewie* So... ?
Siobhan
Thu 02:52AM EST
She shrugs.."lemmie think on it" she begins to pace again.."i need to sleep on it..i mean.." she shrugs.."yall sure you want to have someone who may leave tomorrow?" she looks over at them.."i mean shit, that aint right....although.." (dancers) "I suppose i may be stayin a bit"
Dire
Thu 02:54AM EST
*he smiles at her and peeks back at Nova's book, His blue eyes looking up to smile at Chewie*
Decker Rohl
Thu 02:54AM EST
"Back off," snaps Decker immediately. Seems like the Modi still had some fire left in him. A step back, a frustrated turn. Two steps away, two steps back. Pacing.
"I don't care. I don't fuckin' wanna know. I don't - know."
Silence. Turning, moving, head down, one restless hand running over skull so recently cracked, already healed. It's not the physical cuts that stay with a Garou, most times. It's the other ones that you can't see, that cut the deepest.
"I ain't no Theurge," muttered. "I can't figger it out none, either."
Nova
Thu 02:55AM EST
Her nose in her book once again, she mumbles an answer.
"It's not like the Middle Ages, when a coven would kill one of it's members if she tried to leave. Shit happens, people have to leave. I understand."
Siobhan
Thu 02:57AM EST
She stops and looks at them..goblins? when Decker just mentioned dancers
"the fuck does this have to do with anything?"
remind you of someone? its in the blood
Dire
Thu 02:58AM EST
*He nods* I understand too. Sometimes you got shit you gotta do. Three of us packin up and looking out for each other beats the pants off of 3 of us standing alone. We could also get a totem. * he nods* I've seen Packed units move. They are .. * he waves a hand* Connected.
*He points off to the right* Those little foot tall green guys with the pointy ears and sharp teeth like to fuck with me.
Siobhan
Thu 03:00AM EST
She looks over at nothing
"aint nothin there"
Dire
Thu 03:02AM EST
*He snorts* Yeah.. that's what they WANT you to think.
Jukebox
Thu 03:03AM EST
this time
he doesn't back off
he doesn't back down
not. from. you. not. this. time.
while the Fenrir paces, the Gnawer stands still
such a contrast they've always been
one sleek, seething, stalking between the trees the frustrated, explosive predator
one shaggy, tattered, the calm statue of a strange school of reason
"Let me tell you something, Decker. Ahrouns can figure it out. It's just a matter if they do it too late. You don't want to let it become too late like I did."
Nova
Thu 03:04AM EST
"Brownies! Says here they make themselves responsible for the house where they live by coming out at night to complete unfinished work. Any offer of reward will drive them away, but they expect a bowl of milk of cream and cake to be left out. Tradition says they do not like teetotallers and ministers. If offended, brownies will create malicious mischief."
Decker Rohl
Thu 03:05AM EST
His back to the Bone Gnawer, the Modi turns his face to the stars. Inhales. Fills his lungs with pinescent and starlight.
Exhales. Barely audible,
"Like you did?"
He doesn't turn; he just listens. Sometimes, eye contact made it that much harder to speak. To listen. To hear.
Siobhan
Thu 03:05AM EST
She begins to pace again, slowly...there were dancers nearby (well close enough) and they were sitting there talking bout goblins...which she didnt see at all...goblins? What the fuck....
She glances to Nova who is encouraging Dires behavior...
But she seems to ...understand him...
Siobhan doesnt understand shit bout gobmins or brownies or nothing, she knows there are big fucking rats and stone welding spiders and dancers
She paces a little faster...thinking...thinking...
Nova
Thu 03:09AM EST
Looking up, she frowns at Siobhan, and closes the book.
Someone is not finding this fun or interesting. Nova will stop being a huge dork now."
Dire
Thu 03:09AM EST
*He nods* I don't have a home.. I probly got goblins. * he nods sagly and looks at Chewie* Your all up in the guts about those dancers eh? * he nods* I feel it. Once all 3 of us are back to rights we'll get um.
Dire
Thu 03:11AM EST
Your not a dork. * he smiles at Nova* I like you. Your spunky. * he crawls over the log and pokes at his taped up leg wondering if it's healing*
Siobhan
Thu 03:13AM EST
She looks at the 2 of them.. and sighs...she wasnt a people person, she wasnt much of a talker its in the blood Nova had packed up with her (half) brother, she should be used to the attitude attached with it, she didnt feel bad, never called the girl a dork, just didnt know what they were goin on n on bout..
"fuckin right we'll get them" she replies.. thinking now...just pondering as she paces...
"at least 2 of them left" she speaks softly...looking up at the sky.."2 at least"
Dire
Thu 03:15AM EST
Yeah but we're get, and we got a spunky blue haired Gnawer thurge. They know how to survive. We'll get um.
Nova
Thu 03:16AM EST
She shuts up and puts her nose back in her book, still listening, but unable to add anything helpful to a conversation about fighting.
Dire
Thu 03:17AM EST
*He grins and keeps trying to peek at the book*
Siobhan
Thu 03:22AM EST
The path you tread is narrow
And the drop is shear and very high
The ravens all are watching
From a vantage point nearby
Apprehension creeping
Like a tube-train up your spine
Will the tightrope reach the end
Will the final couplet rhyme
She paces...thinking..the 2 of them almost not there in her mind..she is in her own world...thinking...one of these days, she and Decker would have a talk..without the others there for distraction...[are you your fathers son]
She would find out answers to things...
Remember a day before today
A day when you were young.
Free to play alone with time
Evening never came.
Sing a song that can't be sung
Without the morning's kiss
Queen - you shall be it if you wish
Look for your king
Why can't we play today
Why can't we stay that way
She comes out of her little world and glances at them...."IT's getting late..im getting tired." she looks at Nova.."how are you feeling?"
Jukebox
Thu 03:23AM EST
"Yeh.... like I did."
again, that silence between them
when the Modi looks up to find his answers in the stars
he looks down, already knowing what's laying beneath the earth
"Because when you've denied it until you're the only one left, you're the one that has to kill them."
Nova
Thu 03:25AM EST
She looks up at Siobhan.
"Getting sleepy. And my ass is sick of the ground. But otherwise okay under the circumstances."
Siobhan
Thu 03:26AM EST
She glances to Dire.."and you?" she looks at his leg...
there...i at least asked didnt i
Dire
Thu 03:28AM EST
*He smiles brightly* I live. I'll be awright
Siobhan
Thu 03:29AM EST
She looks around..."you need help gettin to where you sleep?" she doesnt react to the other get...she isnt the playful type, she actually wonders if he is a ragabash in disguise....
Glancing around she looks for any sign of the others (James and Decker) but hears nothing..."it's getting late, my arm is still sore.." she speaks softly...
Decker Rohl
Thu 03:30AM EST
And...
...silence.
Crickets somewhere, the last of the season. The next cold front will kill them all, and the land will know winter.
Crickets, a babbling brook, the wind in the trees.
Decker lowers his head, inch by inch, and finally runs both hand over his face, over his head, scrubbing hard as though to scrub the last few months away. If he'd known the complications he'd face here, if he'd known the responsibilities he'd bear as a Fostern...
No use regretting the past. That was the path of the weak, the cowardly. Dropping his hands, Decker lets a breath out.
"Me 'n Gaby, we was tight. We had an agreement," he says. A year of silence passes before he speaks again. "Unspoken truce. I ain't gonna break it. Not before she does."
And another.
"But she hustles at the Stix Billiards Hall."
She was James' tribesmate. Was. She was Decker's...friend? Either way, Decker didn't want this kill.
Dire
Thu 03:31AM EST
*He hops a bit and tests the weight on his leg and hopes that Decker still has a headake*
Nova
Thu 03:34AM EST
"I'm fine were I am. The fire is a good bed-buddy."
Siobhan
Thu 03:35AM EST
She ponders this...and shrugs..glancing at the fire...then Dire..then her own little place over in the distance..away from them all..."right..ok"
turning her head to look once more at the woods she finally stops pacing..."we'll talk more tomorrow"
neff said, she wasnt a people person
Dire
Thu 03:37AM EST
*He smiles* Sleep well Siobhan. Watch out for the goblins
Nova
Thu 03:37AM EST
"Night"
Dire
Thu 03:43AM EST
*He nods to Nova* I guess we should crash too. You ok? *He nods to her legs* Gotta like.. use the bushes or anything?
Nova
Thu 03:45AM EST
*nods*
Yeah
Jukebox
Thu 03:47AM EST
unseen
dreadlocks shift across fabric in his nod
he can understand that
filing the information away
it didn't need to be said
it was obvious he was going to do it anyway
(it was obvious he was told to)
and the Gnawer steps up
just beside his packmate, shoulder to shoulder
his eyes lift, too
but maybe what he searches for is entirely different
"I lost my pack.... and my mate.... because I let it be too late. I won't let it happen again."
it may mean nothing to Decker
but it means everything to him
Dire
Thu 03:47AM EST
Yeah you need the bushes or yeah your just gonna crash? * He stands*
Nova
Thu 03:50AM EST
"Yeah, I'm just gonna crash."
Dire
Thu 03:51AM EST
*He nods and smiles softly to her* It's good you stood up to that guy eariler. I was busy.. but I saw it. Good job. * He hobbles over to his bag and pulls out a blanket and curls up in it resting his head on his bag*
Decker Rohl
Thu 03:51AM EST
A dichotomy.
A juxtaposition.
The raggedy Gnawer looks to the stars. The purebred Fenrir, an echo of the great heroes of the past, looks to the earth. The one so young by human terms, already a Fostern by the Garou. The other older, wiser, still a Cliath - perhaps only because of the weight of his past, which he could not set down. Side by side: packmates, auspicemates. Matched in height and strength and little else; connected in ways humans could never dream of.
He doesn't have to say anything. In the end, Decker just sets a hand on James' solid shoulder, squeezes once.
James will track her down and do what's needed, but he'll be there to back his packmate up. And to close the book that he opened.