unfit to lead.
Posted: Wednesday, April 28, 2010 by Damon in Labels: blood summons, joe, kora, trudy[Trudy Adler] (ooc: Just want to double-check that people are fine with the fact that I am lazy and haven't put in Trudy's sacrifice like, a week a go. I'll post it later, when someone kicks me.)
[Blood Summons] [*LOL* I never post sacrifices. I am a lazy, lazy bitch.]
[Trudy Adler] (ooc: awesome. I don't feel so bad, then, lol.)
[Joe Holst] It is an odd change, when Joe is at rest, his attention bent inward. The boy is a creature of waiting violence, made of brutality and its many expressions. Knee jerk reactions. Tunnel vision bigotries. At least one can say he's never a halfway sort.
Now though, the boy seems- really- thoughtful. His expression smoothed from effort. Shoulders relaxed. His attention on the blood spattered dust and gleams of bone shards mixed with the sand in the challenge circle. His arms are crossed over a formidable chest, the muscles along his forearm twisting like snakes as he squeezes his hand absently into a fist, over and over again.
Nah- that's not ritual. That's a tic. A problem with many Modi, really. Taught to use bodily control to keep a grip on their rage, the body- some motion of it- is needed to think.
Eventually his eyes slice at Blood Summons like razors. Pre-emptive aggression meant to cover up what is obviously more than a little unease. A cover for doubts. Its not easy, leveling a challenge at one's elders.
"We aint gonna fight. Kemp-rhya taught me dat's only paht of bein' Jarl. An' yew don' needa fight like a Modi ta know how ta tell us ta go fight sumpfin else, yeah?" Joe grits his teeth briefly, nods to Blood Summons, then continues.
"He said leadahship is best tested fah dis." Joe's eyes skate left and right, embarassed to be doing this like... like...
well.. it certainly doesn't taste like a Fenrir way of things in his mouth. But then, Kemp had been an Adren.. it is not for cliaths to assume they know more. Just to try hard.
"Sah weah gonna staht widda Staredown. Self control is foyst in leadahship. Den, I'mma test yew on yowah knowledge uh how ta guide Modi. An' den, yew test me on how ta guide Godi in what dey dew. My questions is all gonna be mostly logistics, not da tactics of fighting. Yew don' gotta outfight us ta know how ta use us, like I said."
You're wandering, Joe. Finish up.
He clears his throat. "I'd appreciate it if yew dew da same fah me. 'Cause I'll be th' foyst ta tell ya I dunno shit about da Spirits demselves..."
Joe's thick neck swings toward Trudy
"Dat soun' like a goodt way ta dew t'ings ta yew?"
[Blood Summons] After the Revel, most of the Sept's warriors are starting to slog back towards their territories, to their Kinfolk or their beds or a combination of the two, to drink and to eat and to continue celebrating their having survived another passage of the moon.
The Fenrir, though, have unsettled business.
Blood Summons, despite his recent travails in the Umbra, despite the depletion of the Revel and the hunting of the Englings led by the Ahroun Elder rather than a Wyrmfoe--there is no Wyrmfoe now, not since Truth in Frenzy died, not since sklora-Myrgen followed him--holds himself as though he has energy left in his body, as though he has pride yet. It's unusual to see such strength of purpose in a sin-born, almost as unusual as seeing one of his breed having attained the rank that he has.
Seeing a Full Moon, let alone a Modi, fidgeting when having to do something other than fight, when his Rage is burning bright to match the face of Luna overhead, is not so unusual. Whereas the Godi can stand still and focus, he does not appear to think any less of the Modi for not being able to do likewise.
This is a Modi he has followed into battle before, who he has charged with leadership of a mission because he believed in his capabilities as a warrior. War-Handed is the greater fighter; Blood Summons is the greater thinker. As the Modi says, there is more to leading a tribe than fighting. Blood Summons does not argue with him. He just listens: to the conditions of the challenge, to the steps they will take to determine who will emerge victorious.
If he has any qualms about the challenge, if he disagrees with anything, he knows it is not his place as the challenger to contest them. He had named the place and time, at the challenge circle after business was concluded. Now he looks to the newcomer, the only Forseti their comparatively large tribe has, and waits for her verdict.
[Trudy Adler] Fistful of Reason stands with the two Fenrir challenging over the leadership of the Tribe. She stands at ease, wearing dark gray sweatpants, a simple t.shirt and a pair of sneakers, all that have seen better days, but are loose and comfortable when the moon rises high and full.
She looks between them both with eyes that are not blue but a drab olive green, sharp and intelligent.
Joe speaks and she listens to him, carefully - his accent demanding it, and when her opinion is asked, she gives it.
"Since your Tribe here has a representation of more then Godi and Modi, I suggest you both tell, or show, how you're going to lead the Tribe, as a whole. Jarl is leadership of us all, and each of us, at the end of this, will be following you in a time of War. Our lives will be in your hands. I am no Godi, and," - pointing to some of the others, "-that is no Modi."
"It's good to question how you would best lead one another, but this is a challenge that affects us all War-Handed, Blood-Summons. Lets incorporate that." It's her opinion, but she leaves the current Jarl, the challenged, to decide ultimately.
[Sorrow] Sorrow stands outside the challenge circle, watching. She is a tall creature, long-limbed and loose-jointed, her eyes bright from the hunt, gleaming in the pale light, her hair pulled back sharply from her face in a loose French braid. Like most of them, she wears ordinary, well-worn clothes shot-through with her spirit - a black t-shirt, proclaiming her love for late '80s indie rock (PIXIES across it, in white-ish letters), worn, well-fitted jeans, scuffed Doc Marten's, bracelets at her wrists, a black choker around her neck, leather, braided and thin. Her arms are loose, her fingers tucked into the front pockets of her jeans, the posture is easy - but alert, her attention swinging from her Alpha, to Blood Summons, and ultimately to the Forseti who stands with them now, intent and watchful.
[Joey] Joey watches from beyond the circle. She watches thoughtfully as the young Modi speaks of their fallen Jarl and the words of wisdom he left behind. She listens to the Forseti standing over the challenge. Her gaze flicks to she who offers sorrow, but ultimately, it comes to rest on the challengers.
Challengers who will not be combatants. The corner of her mouth twitches at that. The tall, athletic, leanly muscled Rotagar is dressed in dark clothing. A black and grey raglan, the sleeves pushed to her elbows, fitted jeans of a dark wash, sneakers. Her blonde hair is down, sweaty from the hunt, her bangs pushed back from her forehead.
Eventually, she crouches outside the circle, elbows on knees, hands dangling between them.
[Joe Holst] A drawn out exhale as Trudy's offering to the challenge complicates things further. Nevertheless, the bullish Modi can see through his embarassment to the wisdom in the words. A bare glance at Blood Summons- Joe's bright eyes stabbing again at the Fostern's face before he looks back to Trudy.
"We'll have a third part then. Yew ovahsee dat one yahself. Yew ask yowah own questions."
Joe's weight shifts from foot to foot. The Beast under the skin insists that this isn't right. Not the correct way at all. Threaten to name the Sword a coward.. Putting aside his reservations, Joe fixes his attention on Blood Summons again.
"Ready?"
[Silence] After the moot: the fires burned down low. The dawn staining the east.
He was alone at the moot, and he's alone now, far from the rest of his tribesmen. In his direwolf form, hulking and savage, his paws are planted wide, head level with his shoulders. He looks terrible. Taut, feral, unhinged. Like he hasn't eaten for a week. Like he's eating himself up, rage consumed by rage.
He interrupts, a low snarl:
"What Tribe are we?"
[Trudy Adler] Trudy looks from Joe to Blood Summons and then over to Silence.
"Are you challenging Silence-rhya?"
It would be a lie to say that her heart does not beat harder and faster in the presence of the insane Garou.
[Joe Holst] Joe's posture buckles with the shift. Folding, then growing again into something murderous and grey. High Tongue is to be met with High Tongue, so Joe snaps into hispo himself.
We are the Get of Fenris.
[Blood Summons] This is the first time that Blood Summons has been close enough to Silence to feel how powerful his Rage burns, the first real time that he has even been in his presence since his arrival in the city. The Godi's head swivels to level his eyes on the much higher ranked Fenrir when he skulks over, feeling like the Apocalypse on four legs, and in an instant War-Handed is shifting into his dire wolf form to meet the Athro.
Blood Summons remains in his alien human skin, arms at his sides, respectful but not outwardly fearful. Fistful of Reason asks Silence if he would like to challenge, and the metis's eyes flick to War-Handed as he answers the question.
He watches the two of them without speaking, still within the drawn line in the sand.
[Silence] Silence does not snap his jaws at Trudy. He does not growl at her, or snarl at her, or leap at her and pin her to the sandy ground.
He -- quite simply -- ignores her altogether.
When Joe answers, the response is instantaneous: "LIES!"
His eyes are pale in this form, utterly devoid of color, chips of ice glittering in his face. Beneath a pelt still heavy with winter, his musculature bunches and releases, absorbs his weight and passes it on. He paces around the drawn circle, legs stiff, hackles up, tail low and saber-curved.
"What Tribe are we, that we settle our leadership bloodlessly?" He's reached Joey. He sniffs at her, pushing his muzzle into her ruff, snorting. "Children of Gaia?" Sorrow: sniffing at the backs of her knees, snapping at her heels. "Bone Gnawers? Glass Walkers?
"What Tribe are you, imposters of Fenris?"
[Trudy Adler] Her tongue licks across her front teeth as the Athro continues to rant over top of them all.
[Joe Holst] (Rage: uuh.. I think its perm you roll. Guh-bye, Joe!)
Dice Rolled:[ 6 d10 ] 3, 4, 4, 4, 8, 8
[Sorrow] (switching comps!)
[Joe Holst] The elder names the sin.. lays it out in the open. Bloodless. Nothing given or taken. The exchange of Other Tribes brought to their own. It proves too much for Joe's already thinly stretched sense of dignity. The shame of it overwhelms him, and the boy explodes forward in Crinos. His eyes blaze with the unseeing Frenzy that only the Wyrm ever gives. In a moment Joe becomes a slave to Beast-of-War, and means to eat the Messenger.
[Joe Holst] (Inits! Put em up! ....ath...ro..>.>) +8
Dice Rolled:[ 1 d10 ] 5
[Silence] [dice! inits +20]
Dice Rolled:[ 1 d10 ] 9
[Sorrow] +6 in homid!
Dice Rolled:[ 1 d10 ] 3
[Blood Summons] [+7]
Dice Rolled:[ 1 d10 ] 9
[Silence] [sekret wp check: i'm batshit!]
Dice Rolled:[ 8 d10 ] 1, 1, 1, 2, 2, 3, 8, 8 (Failure at target 8)
to cricket
[Joey] [I hate you all
+7]
Dice Rolled:[ 1 d10 ] 5
[Trudy Adler] 6
Dice Rolled:[ 1 d10 ] 3
[Silence] erm. -1WP.
to cricket
[cricket] D:
to Silence
[Silence] [init order:
silence 29
blood summons 16
joe 13
joey 12
sorrow/trudy 9]
[Silence] [your declares!]
to Sorrow, Trudy Adler
[Sorrow] [1 WP - Resist Pain; 1 Rage - snapshift to Crinos.
1a. Grapple Joe
1b. Block Joe's attack
Rage 1: Block Joe's attack]
[Trudy Adler] [Willpower - Resist Pain. Rage - Hispo.
Bodyslam Joe. ]
[Joey] [1WP Resist Pain, 1R snapshift to Crinos
1a: Body slam Sorrow
R: Held]
[Joe Holst] (SORRY!)
1a: bite decker
1b: bite decker
1r: bite decker
2r: bite heem some mo'
[Blood Summons] The Godi remains in his human skin and does not move forward, but his voice is no less monstrous when it comes out in something like a roar.
[Reflexive: "Cliaths, stand down!"
Action: Held.]
[Joe Holst] (Or like- no splits. Because he's frenzied.)
[Silence] [-1WP: preemptive resist-urge-to-flip-lid WP.
1a. jump on top of Joe!
b. jawlock
R1/R2/R3 - held.]
[Silence] [thaaat's assuming all the cliaths stand down, btw]
[Trudy Adler] [Changing action: Blood Summons is wise; let the Modi make the mistake - Standing down, in Hispo.]
[Sorrow] [Changing action: Sorrow will stand down; reserve the right to block Joe's attacks if Silence doesn't succeed in jumping on top of him.]
[Joey] [Since the other Cliaths are standing down, so does Joey]
[Silence] [folks -- okay with everyone if lessa is mod? speak now or forever hold peace!]
Dice Rolled:[ 11 d10 ] 1, 2, 3, 3, 5, 5, 6, 7, 7, 7, 8, 10 (Success x 9 at target 3) Re-rolls: 1
[Silence] [whoops. errrr. YOU DIDN'T SEE THAT.]
[Blood Summons] [*gibbers*]
[.fly.] [Willing to mod if folks agree - but mostly that means I'll step in if you mess up. All of you know what you're doing. *L* And I'm tired and cranky and hurt all over. So. Be nice. :) ]
[Trudy Adler] (ooc: I'm fine with it.)
[Joey] [i'm cool with it]
[Blood Summons] [I'm totally down with it.]
[Joe Holst] (mod it up.)
[Sorrow] (fine w/me)
[.fly.] [puts on hat, answers Damon's question, gestures to continue on. :) ]
[and I really love ya'll. honest. :) ]
[Silence] [okay -- lessa called a long jump, which means i actually don't have to reroll (str+ath-2(split) works out).
b. jaw lock! dex+brawl+2(hispo)-3(split)]
Dice Rolled:[ 8 d10 ] 2, 4, 5, 8, 8, 8, 8, 9 (Success x 5 at target 6)
[Silence] [jaw locking: resisted str + ath roll.
str + ath + 3 (hispo) +3 (eagle) + 4 (succ)]
Dice Rolled:[ 17 d10 ] 1, 1, 2, 2, 4, 4, 5, 5, 5, 5, 6, 7, 7, 8, 8, 9, 9, 10, 10, 10 (Success x 8 at target 6) Re-rolls: 3
[Joe Holst] (str/ath)
Dice Rolled:[ 11 d10 ] 1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 6, 6, 7, 7, 10, 10 (Success x 6 at target 6)
[Joe Holst] (WAIT, REROLLS)
Dice Rolled:[ 2 d10 ] 4, 4 (Failure at target 6)
[Joe Holst] (yew may pro-ceed)
[Joe Holst] (Str/ath, diff is 9. NINE. The number. *glares*)
Dice Rolled:[ 11 d10 ] 1, 2, 2, 3, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 7, 9 (Failure at target 9)
[Joe Holst] (roll should have been strength/brawl? but its the same number.)
[.fly.] (its... yes. *waves absently* continue!)
[Joe Holst] (uhhh.. still my go? Joe's got a total of 3 actions, the two rage will switch to attempts at escaping. I don't know how long he ought to stay frenzied or anything, but his stamina spec is tireless, so it could be a while.)
[.fly.] (you dont' have a split - that's it for you for round one. Anyone else or is everyone standing down?)
[Silence] [joe has 2 rage actions! should i roll to resist the failed escape roll, btw?]
[.fly.] He failed - he's locked. No need to resist the failed roll (cuz that makes no sense. *L*)
And I'm aware he has rage actions - they just need to go in order. If you're just holding on - then yes, joe, you're up again. (assuming everyone else remains standing down...)
[Joey] [standing down]
[Silence] [question: is it an action to resist an escape attempt, or is it reflexive?]
[.fly.] [Action]
[Silence] [continuing to hold rage actions to resist getaway attempts then!]
[Joe Holst] (looked at a foal real quick. back now. same thing- trying to escape. Roll is str/brawl diff 9)
Dice Rolled:[ 11 d10 ] 1, 2, 2, 3, 4, 5, 5, 5, 6, 7, 8, 10, 10 (Success x 1 at target 9) Re-rolls: 2
[Joe Holst] (and again for when its...relevant.)
Dice Rolled:[ 11 d10 ] 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 6, 6, 8, 9, 9, 9, 10 (Success x 3 at target 9) Re-rolls: 1
[Joe Holst] Ignore those rerolls- the spec doesn't apply.)
[.fly.] [as they're added in, and could be your success - reroll it.]
[Joe Holst] (sure. banging out both real quick)
Dice Rolled:[ 11 d10 ] 3, 3, 3, 3, 4, 5, 5, 6, 6, 7, 10 (Success x 1 at target 9)
[Joe Holst]
Dice Rolled:[ 11 d10 ] 1, 1, 1, 3, 6, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 10 (Failure at target 9)
[Silence] [R1]
Dice Rolled:[ 16 d10 ] 1, 2, 2, 4, 4, 4, 5, 5, 5, 6, 7, 7, 8, 8, 8, 9, 10, 10, 10, 10 (Success x 13 at target 5) Re-rolls: 4
[.fly.] [I'm pretty sure Joe be stayin right where he is. *L* Any actions left?]
[Silence] [ok -- asking for mod opinion to get back to RP: can we just assume joe's frenzy eventually tapers off as his rage depletes w/o rolling over and over? alternatively, decker can try to knock him out with his two remaining rage actions.]
to .fly., Joe Holst
[.fly.] That's actually what I was going to suggest - What say you, dirge?]
to Joe Holst, Silence
[Joe Holst] (Sounds good. Its basically going to go like that until he is out of frenzy or gets knocked out, something like that. I'm not sure as to the mechanics of coming out of frenzy though, aside from being really tired and in this case, tainted.)
to .fly., Silence
[.fly.] When he's outa rage, he's outa frenzy, so yes. tiiiiiiiiiiiired. Empty. but able to think again.
Back IC.
to Joe Holst, Silence
[Silence] All I feel, he said to Imogen, is anger or nothing. He feels anger right now. He's bleeding fury -- outraged at his younger tribesmen, outraged at their challenge, outraged that a Cliath is attacking him,
outraged because he knows he's not fit to lead like this,
outraged because he knows Kemp was. And Kemp is dead now.
As War-Handed comes at him, eyes empty, jaws slavering, the world crystallizes around him in his rage. Everything seems vivid, frozen, already-seen. He feels like he's fought so many battles. He feels like he can predict every last wolf's actions down to the millimeter before they twitch a muscle. He feels an almost-irresistible tug to slip phantomlike amongst that tapestry of frozen strands -- and cut them all down.
Just destroy. Just kill. Just tear the pup to shreds, and then the one next to him, and the next, and the next, not because that would sate his anger, but because that would feed it. And that would give him something to feel. Something to fill the thundering chambers of his heart.
He thinks: it would be easy.
He thinks: I'm on an ill path.
It takes will to do what he does instead. It takes will, and his will is not quite up to the task anymore. His will is iron, but his rage is white-hot flame, and his will melts before it like butter. It takes will that he can ill afford to hold back from the urge to destroy, and though killing would be so easy, this is hard.
It's hard for him to draw himself back to the present. To draws his legs under him and leap forward, upward, arcing over the younger wolf to land squarely on his back and seize him by the scruff of the neck --
firmly, unshakably, but what passes for gently between the Fenrir
-- and force him to the ground. To hold him there without biting down.
It's hard for Silence to muster the will to do this. But he does it. And he waits for the frenzy to pass, as all storms eventually must.
[Joe Holst] The world eventually thaws from the scatter of red- wrought shapes and the shine of bloodlust. That mad kaleidoscope- becomes sand in Joe's mouth and the grit of pebbles under his fingernails.
Nothing is left of that savage burn in his chest. The fierce, hungry joy that can drag worlds down with him. The feeling is not unlike rising from a warm bath only to drop on cold tiles afterward. His muscles are slack, feel unhitched from his limbs..
No. Something remains. A shred of black to mark the passing of a denied Beast-of-War. A foul, hidden mark on the skinhead's soul. Slowly his eyes open, and even that is hard. Joe's lips- for he has lips now, tossed from the hot sea of urge to the shoreline, he's left in homid. Left in homid seething.
Its a whisper. One so quiet it only just reaches Silence's ears. Finality in it. Hatred. Hatred as a shield against shame.
"Don't yew dare.. Don' yew dare name me Urrah den ack like dat aint a woyd feh killin."
[Joe Holst] (Yeah so the aforementioned lips. They move. Right. As opposed to just being his lips. Sheesh.)
[Joey] It takes will to hold still when Silence stalks behind her, presses his nose to the back of her neck like some hugely oversized dog in a moment of curiosity. Feeding her arm to a Fimbul wolf was nothing compared to the feel of Silence's nose, the whuff of air as he snorts against her hair. But Joey holds still until he passes.
And she continues to watch events unfold. She listens to the Athro condemn them all, the challengers for their combatless challenge, the witnesses for simply watching, holding their tongues and waiting. As if this were normal. As if the Get of Fenris could do anything without it leading to violence.
It erupts from the Cliath Modi, already standing tall and war formed and vicious. The other Cliaths explode upward. Kora to defend her packmate, her alpha. Trudy to likewise interfere. Joey hasn't even started in the Skald's direction when the Godi calls the Cliaths to hold back. And watch, as Silence doesn't simply throat the Cliath.
He might now, though. Abruptly, where there stood a grey and white furred monster, scars across her stomach and crisscrossing her throat, one eye dark and intent while the other gleams white, there is now a blonde woman.
Joey doesn't speak up. She doesn't move to the side of any of the other Fenrir. She stands there, watching, fists clenched at her sides, jaw tight.
[Sorrow] (OOC: Just a correction given the narrative in Joey's post. Kora's intent was to stop Joe's attacks on Silence, not to defend him. Her declared blocks were meant to be blocking Joe's attacks on Silence. So that everyone who read her intent gets it, and her declared grapple was again, to stop Joe from attacking Silence, not to defend Joe from Silence's attacks. :) )
[Blood Summons] [Primal-Urge+Perception: Hmm...]
Dice Rolled:[ 7 d10 ] 1, 3, 4, 5, 7, 7, 9 (Failure at target 8)
[Joey] [oops, that's right, her declares were blocks. pretend i didn't say defend in that post!]
[Sorrow] (ooc: perfect! thanks. :) )
[Blood Summons] [*rerolls*]
Dice Rolled:[ 7 d10 ] 1, 1, 2, 4, 7, 7, 10 (Failure at target 9) [WP]
[Trudy Adler] Everywhere there is an explosion of fur and fangs, an instant reaction to an opinion that were taken as insults. Reason is also in that fray, her human form becomes the great Direwolf meant for violence and war, and her intention had been to knock Joe off course. But Blood Summons yells for them to halt, his voice commanding enough to jerk her more sensible reasoning - let the Athro handle it; which had come after her instinct to follow a direct command.
She waits, breathing heavier, focused on Silence and War-Handed.
[Silence] As the hispo becomes a homid, Silence's teeth relent by slow degrees. He stands over War Handed a moment longer -- long enough to hear those quiet words.
It rouses a low growl in his chest, the first sound he's made since mocking them all for bone gnawers, for children of gaia. It's a slow rumble, so deep that it's more felt than heard, more pressure than sound. He steps over the younger Modi, circles around before him. His tongue licks between his bared teeth once.
"It was," the word-thoughts are conveyed clearly, unflinchingly, "wrong of me to mock my brothers and sisters as pretenders to the Tribe. Fenris chose every one of you. It is not my place to deny him."
An exhale, a growl beneath the breath.
"But the Fenrir do not choose their Jarls by talking. The wisest and most honorable Garou are nothing when they lie dead on the battlefield."
[Silence] [percep+pu: does he notice joe was flipped?]
Dice Rolled:[ 6 d10 ] 1, 2, 3, 5, 5, 10 (Failure at target 8)
[Joey] [percept + PU: does ANYONE notice?!]
Dice Rolled:[ 4 d10 ] 1, 2, 6, 10 (Failure at target 8)
[.fly.] [Lessa TOTALLY notices...]
Dice Rolled:[ 4 d10 ] 3, 6, 8, 10 (Success x 2 at target 8)
[.fly.] (HAHAHAH! TAKE THAT)
[cricket] [the cricket said to the fly, that dude is so tainted, man.]
Dice Rolled:[ 6 d10 ] 8, 8, 8, 9, 9, 10 (Success x 6 at target 8)
[Sorrow] Sorrow: Per + Primal-Urge
Dice Rolled:[ 8 d10 ] 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 6, 7, 8 (Failure at target 8)
[vikthya] [I WANNA ROLL SHIT.]
Dice Rolled:[ 6 d10 ] 1, 6, 6, 8, 9, 10 (Success x 2 at target 8)
[Sorrow] Again! THAT IS MY PACKMATE.
Dice Rolled:[ 8 d10 ] 3, 4, 5, 7, 8, 8, 8, 8 (Success x 1 at target 9) [WP]
[Blood Summons] Were he a son of any other tribal spirit, the metis would have tried to stop the Cliath Full Moon from attacking the Athro. Were he a Child of Gaia, or a Bone Gnawer, or a Glass Walker, his first instinct might have been to protect the lower-ranked warrior from certain death. He would have recognized Rage madness when he saw it and sought to keep yet another of their blood from staining the sand tonight. He would not have told the Cliath's own packmate not to try and stop him from attacking the Athro. He might have encouraged her to, even commanded her.
The Cliaths are not Children of Gaia, or Bone Gnawers, or Glass Walkers. Maybe it isn't his tribe that has him nearly snarling out that order for the Rotagar, the Forseti, and the Skald to stay their hands and let the Modi handle the Modi. Maybe it's wisdom, or recognition, or being his own brand of insane.
What facts there are stand thusly: Silence provoked War-Handed, War-Handed gave into the Wyrm, and the only one physically capable of putting him down without being torn to ribbons in the process is the one who is too out of his mind to lead them anywhere but down an inwardly-reaching path.
Blood Summons is the last one standing in homid when the dust has settled, and his hearing is not acute enough to pick up the whisper that slips out of War-Handed's throat as he lies pinned beneath the great purebred Athro. He is not out of breath from panic or indecision or even that roar he had loosed earlier. The Rotagar soon joins him.
His blue eyes flick to she who offers sorrow, the only one of War-Handed's packmates present tonight. He has no idea that what just occurred was the fault of the Eater-of-Souls. It was over much too quickly for him to view anything more in the quickness of his claws and the slavering of his jaws than what he did see.
That is what he had been hoping for: rapid resolution.
The Godi reaches up to rub at his chin, then stays his tongue as the Athro issues an admission of fault to precede his point: that the challenge was not indicative of worth on the battlefield. That's where they are now. The entire city is a goddamn war zone. His nostrils flare, once, and his brow furrows, but he says nothing yet.
[Sorrow] When her Alpha returns to his humanskin, so, too, does Sorrow. Her dark eyes flick to Silence when he speaks, watchful, alert; and then, quickly return to her packmate. There is a neat knitting of her brow, a certain gleam in her dark eyes. The calm, quiet blank-face that marks internal communication.
[Joe Holst] The minor tics and spastic muscular hitches are things anyone who's ever frenzied would understand too easily for any to really catch the eye. A twitch of the thick Modi's jaw. The flutter at the corner of one eyelid. Fingers tweaking over and over again. Not to the palm. Not the motion of a man recovering strength of limb and sureness of form. Joe's fingers flick outward. Lend room to claws that are for now not even present.
The bleak hunger in his eyes gives it away.
Joe doesn't argue with Silence. Opens his mouth once- the knee- jerk reaction of the youthful. An offering of reasons why. Explanations. All learned recently at the shoulder of a Garou now dead. It all feels like ashes in his mouth- none of the reasons are his, so he closes his mouth again. Breathes deeply, his attention resting at the bridge of Silence's nose.
Irritation flashes across Joe's face then, and he flicks a glare at Sorrow.
[Sorrow] Sorrow does not flinch from Joe's glare. She looks back at him; direct and sure. In this, she gives nothing. The body language between the packmates is clear, the thread of internal tension that is knitted between them.
[Joe Holst] This won't work. This standing and waiting. This doesn't feel right either. Joe's weight shifts from foot to foot, he chews something bitter, then spits in the sand.
"Yew gonna be owah Jarl again?" He resents, but it sounds like the fading echo of Bone Gnawer to attentive ears. Joe rolls his shoulders and watches Silence with deadened eyes.
[Joe Holst] (That was not clear. Translation: Joe sounds churlish and angry. But its not a kid whining. He's still smarting from the comparison with grody other tribes.)
[Trudy Adler] (ooc: so, I have to go. If someone would be so kind to send me the transcript later, or give me a run-down, I'd appreciate it. Thanks for the scene.)
[Silence] It's no small thing for any Garou to admit fault. Much less a Fenrir. Much less an Athro amongst Cliaths and Fosterns. Much less this Garou, who has lost precisely one battle in his entire life, and who did not lose this one.
Nevertheless: there it was. Spoken plainly; moved past. Now they're all silent, watching, waiting to see what he'll do next, and deep in the core of him a pilot light of fury flickers back on. Flames. He doesn't care that Joe flipped his goddamn lid over being called a Bone Gnawer. He doesn't care that this smacks of weakness, that it's something he should care about, should do something about as an Athro. As his elder. He doesn't care about any of that.
He cares only that they're standing there. Like sheep. Staring. Waiting for instruction. He's a second from roaring at them to say something, do something when Joe speaks again.
The great wolf turns to look at the younger Modi. Their eyes meet like a thunderclap; like a force of nature. Instability at the core of the elder Modi. Rage almost beyond his grasp. His head lowers after a moment; tension, thought. Rises again.
"No. I don't want to." Flat, that. Blunt and unmerciful. A moment later, something more of an admission, "And I am not worthy to lead like this."
[Joe Holst] Alarm flickers across Joe's face, and the resentment is wiped away in its wake. The boy nearly rocks on his heels, like a boxer tagged on the jaw just enough to take the weight out of his knees. Bloodless Challenge.. that had been dangerous territory enough. Something alien to his nature and his schooling. A splinter of wisdom planted in his brain by his dead alpha.
This is something even greater in magnitude. Joe had felt something awfully like relief when Silence's wintry voice had filled the circle. He'd known, way down, that the rumored madness had been just a rumor. That the world would return to something expected. Put right again.
Bitter hate still boils up in the kid's chest. A new and secret sort of shame he was going to have to address. His eyes flick to Sorrow again, perhaps a touch more accepting. That will have to wait. This is the world on its ear, and Joe scrambles inwardly to keep up.
"You'll get bettah." He says it like a forgone conclusion. Like he's trying to ram the idea into his tribesmates. His gaze swivels, colored with threat, amongst them.
"When ya dew, we'll dew dis again." He chews thoughtfully. Nods.
[Blood Summons] Inaction is just as huge of an affront in their culture as weakness is. One could say that inaction is a form of weakness, that choosing to stay silent when one could just as easily speak up is choosing to be a coward. The Fostern, who is only a few years younger than Silence yet eclipsed when it comes to rank, has not opened his mouth since he made a decision for the Cliaths. He's been standing there, looking for all the world as though he is waiting to see what happens; or, worse, watching, which is about as effective as walking away would have been.
He didn't acquire a reputation for being a wise man because he shoots off at the mouth, though, because he speaks before he thinks. If anything, the Garou of this Sept would say that he needs to do more of that: speaking. His attempts at communication are largely nonverbal, and when he does speak it is after periods of silence where it's hard to tell if there's anything going on inside of his skull.
The man--monster--cannot tell that Silence is growing irate with the younger members of his tribe's refusal or unwillingness to speak. What he sees, though, is a respected elder of their tribe struggling to contain his Rage even after he's burnt so much of it off. What he sees is loss. What he sees is anger without an outlet.
"You were worthy enough when you saw an unfit challenge," the metis says. Not 'to speak up' or 'to interrupt' or 'to lead.' "Was that the Rage driving you then, or was that you?"
[Sorrow] (Sorry folks! I've gotten poof. It's way too late, and I've been out of it for a while.)
[Silence] The rumored madness is, indeed, just a rumor. It's something worse than madness that grips the Modi. It's apathy. It's detachment. It's not a flaw in the mind, but in the spirit: something come undone. Ripped loose.
Anyone who looks can see it. All that remains is inconsolable anger and what thin fibers of will remain to bind it.
The direwolf's eyes meet the younger Modi's eyes silently, unflinchingly. He says nothing. When Blood Summons speaks, his head whips sharply toward him and his teeth bare with every snarl.
"There is no difference." There it is again: anger spiking again and again. He takes a step back. Then another. A pivot then, a fluid, flawless turn on his haunches. "Finish your [fucking] challenge."
[Joe Holst] (Hey guys, I've reached the end of my awake-ness. Mind if we pause this here?)
[Silence] [fine by me, but decker's most likely leaving on that note, so don't wait for me tmrw!]
[Blood Summons] If there is anything to be done for Silence, it isn't to be done in this moment, this sliver of time that they have when they're all exhausted. Exhaustion has never stopped any proper Fenrir. A lot of things have never stopped any proper Fenrir. A lot of things have ended proper Fenrir.
One such proper Fenrir has been turned to ash and interred into the Graves of Hallowed Heroes to lie there until the Apocalypse comes to claim the rest of them, felled by, of all things, a Bane and his subordinates' blind trust. A few of those subordinates are gone now, either departed for the west or departed for the homelands.
Blood Summons doesn't know Silence from any of the other heroes manning any of the other Septs in any of the other states he has never been to before. Before tonight, before he took the bone and introduced himself, Silence had never seen Blood Summons before. There is doubt as to whether he saw him then, whether he saw anything that took place tonight that didn't involve running, killing, vainly attempting to burn off anger stronger than anything any of his Septmates have ever felt before.
He should stop him, attempt to counsel him, attempt to steer him away from that path of darkness he's heading down. What words a stranger could offer a stranger, though, are inadequate. Without a pack, without distinction between his Rage and his self, without anything other than solitude and fury, words are nothing more than flies at his flank.
The Godi takes a breath as the Modi turns away, but ultimately says nothing. He doesn't watch him go. He turns back to War-Handed, and he raises his eyebrows.
[Pause!]